The last two weeks have been a time in which I have done a lot of thinking into what this whole deal about living really is. Under extreme circumstances, I was placed in a situation which made me alone……to myself……trying to figure out what exactly I want to do in my lifetime. One thing I’ve come to except is that, from the day we are born, we live and keep learning new things and old things all over again and again. The cycle of change and inevitability…..I think that’s what I would call it. I can safely say that within these two weeks I’ve learned much about myself and others as well…..its been a time of facing reality and at the same time confronting various problems which have been haunting me. The end result?.....only time will tell I guess, but, me being me……I’m willing to be positive and think about the future with timorous fear and awesome excitement at the same time!!!.

I’ve come to realize that each and every individual on the face of this planet lives their lives being fixed on to one thing and then on to the next. It’s like this deep craving inside of us to be really appreciated and needed and at the same time expecting things to work out the way we think it should work out…..when it rarely does. I’ve come to except this fact now…..it’s taking sometime to materialize fully, but I’m getting there.

Then there’s the other side of the coin, which leads us to believe that there really is no hope for true happiness out there. We witness so much hurt and pain in our lives, we shut ourselves out from anything good that’s happening to us even, being afraid that getting too close would only lead to utter disaster in the end……there really is no hope!   ( personally I beg to defer…..but that’s just me)

Summing things up, this is what I know about myself from now on…..I’m born to be a passionate person at whatever I do and the times that I do really put some real constructiveness in my life is few and far in between, but then again…..who’s freakin perfect eh?. All in all, life’s a journey and hurt, pain, suffering, unhappiness and all other negative emotions are part of the cycle of life……..true…….but let me tell u this people…….I’m not a quitter…..and I also believe there’s a lot of happiness, joy, contentment, glee and pure soul uplifting also to experience along with all the negative aspects. I only wish, my mistakes will not haunt me for the rest of my life and ruin whatever I’ve tried to make right in my life! –BUT, I will survive…..and will not lose FAITH even if the skies were to fall on my head right now……as good ol Vitalstatistix used to say!!

Take care readers……and have FAITH…..never lose hope!!!!....it might be knocking down your door right now!!!.....you just need to open your eyes!